10. The moment Trampled by Turtles played my song- I had been screaming for it. It was
my 3rd time seeing them and hoping for my song. I NEEDED to hear it, and they
played it. Feeling music through every inch of your body: this is incredible.
Plus I did it with an IPA in my hand!
9. Rocking out to music while slipping through the
Balkan Alps- Random
new friends, beauty all around me, screaming pop songs at the top of my lungs
while almost sliding of the side of a mountain.
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| yep this is real. We ate lunch here. with this view.photo compliment of Katie Parrott, random new friend who I will probably never see again. Life is crazy. |
8. Watching my awesome friends bowling 6 weeks into my time
in Indonesia- it
is incredible how 6 weeks can change you, and how you can build something from
nothing. Several times I have had this apprehension that I came to a new
country with nothing, and made a whole life out of myself and a suitcase. That
is astonishing.
7. Hops and Barley conversation with Daryn- We talked about our future and our
hopes and dreams. We discussed who we are and nearly broke down in the middle
of the bar, ultimately opting to hold all our emotions in for our goodbye 4
days later. Talking with my best friend the way that we had before I left gave
me some sort of contentment.
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| Love it! Miss it.... |
6. Jumping into the freezing cold ocean water under the
moonlight, stark naked in Montenegro- The stars, that cold water, and my soul mate with me.
Some moments in life are unforgettable. And to think this was just the first
night of a fantastic 10 day long trip.
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| We may have had some drinks.... |
5. Listening to the call to prayer at the Environmental Film
Festival-This was one
of these moments: “Holy shit! I’m here. In Albania. Sitting outside, watching a
film on a large screen. I have a beer in one hand and a cigar in the other, and
both cost me $3. How the fuck did I get here?”
4. Sobbing my eyes out in the basement of my home after
saying goodbye to Daryn-
Realizing that all of the emotions I had gone through in the last year were
going to happen all over again, fear enveloped every part of me. This brought
me to the point of understanding that I have become a stronger, more capable
person. Once again realizing the beauty of unconditional love that reaches no
limits, and the blessings I have been given in the form of family. This cry
session was, of course, followed up by a hug from my mother. So many times in
Albania I had needed that hug, and it was so nice to get it in a moment of
complete brokenness and fear.
3. Looking at the stars on Belitung Island- Grateful for my love of nature, and
the opportunities I've been given. Dumbfounded at how unimportant I am in this
world, like the tiny grains of sand in my hand. Marveling at how far I’ve
managed to come, and knowing that I must endure many more waves before reaching
the shore of my dreams.
2. On the train ride from Switzerland to Milan- I said goodbye to my brother for
possibly a very long time, but there was something marvelous about the goodbye.
Florim( Daryn’s friend who we stayed with) said something that will forever
change the way I feel about goodbyes: He told me that goodbye are a completely
genuine snapshot of what you really feel about someone. They are beautiful
because you have to show your truest form of emotion and can’t hold anything
back. After I got on my train, there was a beautiful sunset over the Alps, and
it was a reminder of the loveliness of relationships and the magnificence of
the earth, and the splendor of changing time. Though I knew in that moment the
relationship I shared with Daryn would never be the same, but I knew it would
always be there. The juxtaposition of change and permanence all in one was
overwhelming.
1. Drinking Gin and Tonics on top of a random deserted roof-
Somehow after a night at Public House, Robert and I ended up wandering the streets alone looking for a drink at 3am. After getting turned down, because everything was closing, we were only able to get drinks to-go and managed to find a deserted building with a rocky set of stairs to enjoy our gin and tonics. We climbed the stairs and sat down to talk out some serious shit. As soul mates, we did this several times in Albania, but this is the only time I can recall sobbing while doing so. We both placed all of our insecurities on the table for each other to see. It had been a seriously long time since I had been that trustworthy with anyone about who I was and what I was feeling. I think this is when I really started to let go of my past and be content and confident with myself.
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| love you forever! |
Somehow after a night at Public House, Robert and I ended up wandering the streets alone looking for a drink at 3am. After getting turned down, because everything was closing, we were only able to get drinks to-go and managed to find a deserted building with a rocky set of stairs to enjoy our gin and tonics. We climbed the stairs and sat down to talk out some serious shit. As soul mates, we did this several times in Albania, but this is the only time I can recall sobbing while doing so. We both placed all of our insecurities on the table for each other to see. It had been a seriously long time since I had been that trustworthy with anyone about who I was and what I was feeling. I think this is when I really started to let go of my past and be content and confident with myself.
Really, it is all just zeros and ones.
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